Been on a spiritual kick. Trying to convince myself that all is one and that everything is connected. Just wanna believe that there’s more to life than the pushing of buttons and the clicking of keyboards; something higher and more purposeful than another iTunes download or mildly amusing YouTube video that only really serves to demonstrate the futility of it all…

Started meditating before breakfast, trying to connect to the spiritual realm, even though I don’t believe in souls because I was brought up on Darwin and materialism and so I know that the only thing I really have in common with everything else is that I’m built of the same stuff and that I’ll eventually decompose in the same way. Guess life is just an ‘enigma’, bro.

There are no answers. Only questions.

Occasionally, I’ll slip into reverie, think about picking up a flute and wandering with the wind through the trees. But then I’ll realise that time is running out and that I’m too attached to my surroundings and my self-imposed responsibilities and so I must stay; remain rooted to the earth from which I came, just as always, but now all the trees in the forest have become withered and brittle and the leaves are starting to fall…

Used to think that this hippy music was a load of nonsense but something about it these days makes me think about the transitory and ephemeral nature of it all. Time is precious. We are lucky to be here at the same time. Blah. Blah. Blah.

All we need now is a substitute for the soul.

Is ‘spirituality’ for weirdos and losers?

Is listening to ‘spiritual’ music something that people start doing when they reach a certain age and start to think that they might have failed at life?

What about when they start talking about crazy shit like ‘power animals’?

Does somebody need to invent a new religion or something for the modern age?

How do you live with the imminency of death in a godless universe?